Okay so what childhood fears did you have? I was afraid of the thing that obviously lived in my basement and was waiting until I turned off the lights to chase me up the stairs and take me down. Um, I was also afraid of my dad when he was hiding in some room off of the hallway and was waiting to jump out at me. 😳
What have I been afraid of at some point in my adult life? Well sometimes the basement thing might still get me depending on what I’m watching. Other than that just a few other small things: losing my husband and children, being able to pay the bills and provide for my family, failing my children, not being a good wife/daughter/sister/friend, and missing my purpose. I’d like to be able to say each of these fears has 100% been conquered but that is not the case. Some are way more dormant than others and only really rear their heads if I allow myself to linger on them too long. Others pop back up with more frequency. One of these fears was brought back into my memory recently after I resigned from my Thirty-One business earlier this year.
You see back in 2012, about five months after I began that business, Jay was laid off. How in the world were we going to pay the bills and provide for the our family on my part-time direct sales business I had just started? Jesus really blessed us during that time by walking with us. His peace was very palpable. He provided for our needs through unexpected ways. We exercised gratitude around every corner. Fast forward eight years and here I was closing that income door, as led by God, to follow His calling on my life. What if another lay-off happened? I wouldn’t have this business our family had worked hard to build.
That fear has come and gone these last five months. In 2012 I held onto the promise that “we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose” (Romans 8:28 AMP). Now, after having experienced that promise acted out, I’ve stepped forward again, in faith, to following His purpose for my life. I have a foundation of faith and trust to build on. Having a relationship with Christ allows me to build a history that extinguishes the fear. So as the fears of this rollercoaster life come along I’ll hold onto the hand of my seat mate and enjoy the ride.